Quiet time

Just realised that my last post was in early Nov… Oh gosh! Where have I been and what have I done?

I have been thinking alot…about the past mainly… Friendships in particular… I wondered to myself, which is worst? Some one out right tell you the truth? OR Someone telling you a white lie (so as to make you feel better) and you found out that it was just a lie? I would wanted truth but if the truth is too much in my face I don’t think I can take it… But then again, when I found that later that I have been lied too, I felt a big ouch in my heart (and even some anger). Perhaps, its a sign I should move on…

They are others whereby I realised how fake I am infront of them… I mean we used to be a clique but when I had the opportunity to talk to them (some I din even see them for like 2 years?!) vs. JF’s friends at the same time I realised how fake I was with them. I have decided to not to keep in contact with them again (maybe just one). She feels the most ‘real’ amongst them.

And then there are the ones who used you. I have a friend in tertiary study who asked me to be a guarantor and phoof! she disappeared after that… She showed up again when she first got engaged and phoof! she disappeared. Her wedding is next month and yup! she showed up again (fyi, this time with a dif guy). Argh! As much as I missed our days together, they are so over.

Most of the time, I do care… I do try to stay connected but sometimes the will is not as strong as the heart… But for the few friends I am left with, YES! you are definitely my focus…

Other stuff (non friendship stuff)… My mum has been quite a pain in the *** eversince I got married. I think the most bizzare thing she has done to date is to ‘book’ the confinement lady for me when I am not even like P!

Work stuff has been crazy, I am like the only employee or rather lower rank staff in the company. Everyone else who is leaving will hand their portfolio to me! Am I the dumpster or what? Just have to hang in there…I need $$$ to pay bills and most importantly fund my holidays… But if you do see adverts in my future employer(you know which one I am referring to ya), please let me know ASAP!

Weekends are mostly filled with house warmings (I am losing count) and recently baking. Our recent flop (yes, flop) is butter cake. We are trying to fix the problem and hopefully by the time it reaches you the next time, they are FAB! wuhahahha…Who knows?! Baking maybe my career?

Alrighty, JF is on his way home and I need to play housewife for the first time in weeks (oops! I have been a bad wife).

Not my day

First portugal lost to germany (sad)

Second, some individual making unnec assumptions

You! Do not assume the timeline. Today is not internal review. Today is to send to client!!!

And you are using the wrong agenda. I already told you that the agenda is soft copy (word.doc) is in your transfer folder. Why did you use the PDF? All u need to do is to clarify with me!!!

太软弱

因为我的软弱连累了他人。。。好难过。

小可爱，对不起。

My Boss’s Stag Night

Coming Sunday is my boss wedding and we planned a stag night for him at Molly Malone on Monday night.

Act 1: Q & A

Boss was asked two questions and for each wrong answer he has to drink a shot which we had prepared before hand. If he is able to answer correctly, the person who is related to the question has to drink.

Q1: When is Lubtub’s English wedding date? He replied 8 of August 2008. (wrong)

Q2: Please spell Thai girl’s surname? He tried to bribe her, followed by threaten her of her bonus and still didn’t get it right 

Act 2: Truth or Dare

He was first dressed as tinkle bell and had to participate in Truth or Dare

T1: Who is the hottest girl in the office? OR D1: Feed fellow colleagues (can be male or female) with snacks provided

(he did the dare)

T2: What is the most annoying habit of your wife? OR D2: Obtain kisses from 5 different female strangers

(he did the dare again)

Act 3: Curse of the Golden Flower

He was dressed as Gong Li in this act (breasts included). Make up was applied on him and he was asked to dance in front of his wife till her satisfaction.

Act 4: Maid in Manhattan

He was dressed as JL (butt included). First, he was given a shot and was asked to either serve to a stranger or drink it up. (he bottoms up) Then, he was asked to feed his wife chicken wings. Lastly, he was offered another shot to toast with one of the colleagues. And to my horrors, he chose me!! So we bottom up.

Act 5: More bottoming up

6 colleagues were to toast to him in tequila pop.

I exit scene for the toilet to perform an act I must aka merlion after witnessing 6 of my colleagues toasting to him.  When I return, boss was competely wasted! He basically passed out into the arms of AD. For the next half an hour or so, they took him to the toilet, trying to wake him up to vomit etc but failed. I merlioned the 2nd time and I think another 15 minutes passed. They got me a cab and just as I left the place, boss was sitting somewhere in front of the pub, still not sober. What I heard was he did vomit after that but for safety reasons they sent him to the hospital and he spent the night there.

This morning, he texted one of the colleagues said that he could only remember having dinner with her and the rest, he completely forgotten. All I can say is he is very sporting and hope the wife is not mad at us.

P.S. I am worried because I am next. Sifu has told me last night that he will plan the thing himself. (Xiao liao)

Resistance

Starting from next year, I will be under another mentor / manager. We are suppose to stick together through thick and thin. She is actually newer than me, probably less than 1 month old in the company. They all said that I will get along well with her because she is very bubbly, cheerful, sensitive etc. But to date I do not seem to share the same sentiments. On the contrary, I find myself building this sense of resistance against her.

Partly because I don’t really know her that well. I sit somewhere in the middle of the office and she sits right at the end (distance matters). So far we have not worked on a project together (although soon there will be, mostly the Chinese speaking projects).

Partly is her dressing I guess. Last Friday, she wore this t-shirt, mini skirt and slacks. I mean the t-shirt and everything is fine. Its just that she is like NNTTL and yet she tuck in her t-shirt and she is not exactly my size? The combination is just weird and this is not the first time I spot her with weird dressing.

Is it possible for one to have resistance of another person because of how they dress? Is it considered as discrimination? I can’t help but wonder what other reasons I have this resistance.

This brings me to another thing. SLLS has quit and her last day was like 2 days ago. Good for her! and me. haha

Leaving

Met a colleague on the way to office and she suddenly dropped the bomb that she is leaving. I find this scene rather familiar. 8 months ago, which was 1 month into my job, it crossed my mind too. And there she is, 1 month into her job, she is leaving. I really liked her very much and I thought we can become very good friends. (p.s. I do not have much friends in office) I know that she is not used to the environment and the job scope turned out to be more micro than she imagined but I didn’t expect her to leave just like that.

I wonder if it has anything to do with age. She is about 7 years older than I am and perhaps she already knows what she want in life. So when she knows that this is not her cup of tea, she is quick to pull out. I am reading this book “Blink” which teaches one to “think without actually thinking” aka. how to use your subconscious more effectively as it is proven that your subconscious “analyse” the situation quicker than your conscious. Chim leh. I am still reading the book so may share more insights in later posts.

Relating it back to my colleague, perhaps she has recognise that this is not what she want and thus able to act on it quickly. In any case, I know I will miss her and  lonely, I will be.

Finally making some inroad…

Work has been improving lately. At least i have been making progress in getting to know the rest of the team although SLLS is still sticking around. And just today a client dropped an email praising me of my effort and most importantly cced my boss! I was thrilled! I think this is probably the first proposal I put up without boss’ help and the client is actually happy. Wow! You cannot imagine my current feelings Hope we can get this project cos we still have to present to client’s big boss.

Goodbye Housefly

I believe these few days is housefly’s last day. Some of you may know about her… Poor girl, didn’t get confirmation afterall. Oh well, hope she will excel in other companies

Good luck!

It’s depressing

Can you believe that my own lunch khaki told me not to join them for lunch today? They “banished” me from the click for today…I am wondering what have I done wrong? They said is only for today..I shall see… What is wrong with this office? I feel like leaving…Can I leave?

Confirmation

I am given the confirmation letter today (effective 11 Mar 2007) but I am not excited nor happy. (~.~)”‘